I’m not sure what happened to me, but when I think back to the person I was almost two months ago, I don’t recognize myself. It’s a damn good thing.
At that time, I had ended something with someone, regretted it, and put myself through hell because of it. Now, I know why I made that decision, I’m more confident and aware of myself than I’ve ever been. It’s a damn good thing.
I believe it was inevitable that this would’ve happened. I feel it was absolutely necessary for me to do the soul searching I needed to do or else no relationship would’ve ever lasted for me. I guess I felt so terrible that I had to lose someone to make that happen. I beat myself up for three straight weeks about that.
Once I learned the power of forgiveness, including forgiving myself, everything changed. I felt a weight lift off me. My life was transforming. It felt so good that I wasn’t ready to stop. There was more work to do.
I started making changes in my daily life – getting up early, eating healthy, working out, followed by meditation, which I think is the number one source of what’s bringing me calmness of the mind and inner peace. There was always this lingering anxiety…it’s gone.
I appreciate the time I share with people more. I started spending less time on social media, and doing more of the things I like. I read more, I write more, I study more and I laugh more. I find myself more in the moment and not worrying about the future. I’m present. I’m happy!
I started feeling this permanent surge of positive energy flow through me. Things don’t bother me quite like they used to. I feel confident with myself, and after feeling crappy for so long, long before the last heartbreak, I finally have a sense of peace within. And it’s new, and I’ve never felt this.
So as 2017 kicks in, I don’t bother to make any resolutions, I’m just going to keep doing what I’ve been doing. No “New year, New me.” For the last month or so it’s been, “New me, right now.”
I’m stepping into 2017 laser-focused. It’s the best I’ve ever felt. My goals are strategically planned, my body, mind and energy are aligned and positive. I’ve let go of the past and my heart is finally opened. It’s a damn good thing!
“So here I am alive at last, and I’ll savor every moment of this.” – The Used – The Taste of Ink